This past week in my own teaching I felt a little disconnected which prompts my question to you, "What was the moment (or moments) when I felt most disconnected or disengaged as a teacher - the moment(s) I said to myself, I'm just going through the motions here?"
There was a point in my life that I felt like I was really going through the motions, when one day it hit that I didn't think I needed to be a teacher is when I got anxiety, which never happens to me. It all happened when work load after work load and story after story came that it was just overwhelming and too much. I was not sure where to turn to as most things are kept confidential. I was at my breaking point. I was not sure why I was feeling this way, but I thought that teaching might not have been for me and I almost gave, but I had a mom that understood and helped me through. She told me that you are going to have those moments, but that doesn't mean that you give up. You have to push harder because those kids needs you. From then on, I learned to have balance in my life and do the best I could to hang on. I do not have many moments, but when I do, I learn to maintain them and push forward.
Anthony N. Love II
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This past week in my own teaching I felt a little disconnected which prompts my question to you, "What was the moment (or moments) when I felt most disconnected or disengaged as a teacher - the moment(s) I said to myself, I'm just going through the motions here?"
Just recently I was teaching one of my classes, I want to say that it was my 5th period. Fifth period is right after lunch and the students come in to my classroom very loud and restless. It takes me a while to settle this class down. So on this day I had tried everything that I felt like I had learned. My set induction was ignored. My directions to their independent learning activity were ignored; however, when I modeled the concept they acted if though they were listening. It was just a weird day with that particular class. At the end of the period students completed the activity but I felt as though they did not pay me any attention. At the end of the day I could have been in my feeling because I did not get the responses that I thought that would receive. Students will give you a hard time on some days and be unresponsive even though they are paying attention. This really made me feel disconnected as their instructor.