And the Beat Goes on

This week I am trying to look at the positives that are before me and go from there. I spent my week-end preparing hearty lesson plans chocked full of engaging activities and ideal group participation. I also intended to record my 1st period class and review the tape during planning today. Well as Fate and Mr. Murphy (of Murphy's Law) would have it, three teachers from my hall were absent today and no sub showed. My neighbor and attendance buddy was one of the absent educators so I had to get her class situated with a movie of some sort as well as notify the main office of our lack of a sub. Did I mention, this was my task all last week as well? Lucky for me, my 1st period class is pretty "with-it". They were able to take our attendance and attempt to set up the video cart for our session. After countless calls to the main office, someone finally showed up for my neighbor's class. I am now frazzled and thrown off track for my own class. Just as I was heading to my darlings, another baby from an unrelated class and department called to me and said 'Mrs. Jackson, our sub is waiting on you.." I was floored. I am but one body in three classes and still unable to get my lesson started. What's going on? I feel like I am in an episode of "groundhog day"....the same scenario keeps repeating over and over and over. I am uncomfortable speaking with my Dept. Head on this matter because I do not want my feelings to be misconstrued. My Admin. as well as the others appear to be pushed beyond their reach so I can't talk to them. My neighbor and mentor ( from across the hall) is in Jamaica funeralizing her sister so I have no other place to go but the blog. I am trying my darnedest to push back tears and avoid an emotional meltdown as I blog about my day. It is hard. I confided in my husband at the beginning of the school year that my goal is to become Teacher of the year. I went on to say, with a goal that high, I am bound for Teacher of the Month at least once this semester. I can honestly say that I have not missed a day of work this semester, I have not been late, and I have changed my attitude towards a lot of things at my school. All to no avail. I am praying for a silver lining beyond the rainbow..It is raining today so I may be in luck. Thanks to everyone for your encouraging blogs; at least I can find some peace and fulfillment from the majority of you all. Well as they say, and the band played on, the beat goes on and so off I go to 4th period. Until this evening~AJ