As
teachers there are many situations that go on each day that we think to
ourselves man I do not want to have to go through this again! I feel like I am
always having one of these moments. My moment for this week was me getting
emotional in front of my students in one of my more rowdy off task classes.
During the whole period the students were off task, constantly on their phones,
not listening, and being disrespectful. I tried to keep my composure through
the entire 102 minute class period. However, at the end of the class I reached
my breaking point and could fill my eyes starting to fill with tears. My
breaking point was when a student said a rude comment to me. At that point my
feelings were just hurt and I could not help but get emotional. I truly wish I
let comments and attitudes that the students have roll off my back, however, I
have not been able to conquer that as of yet. I do not like my students to see
me in a weak moment. I am scared that if they see me when I am weak like that
they will try and take advantage of me. After this situation happened I
internally beat myself up for letting the kids see me weak. I just hope next
time I can let the situation go without me taking it personally.
I remember when I first walked into a classroom, I got walked all over. But you learn and you get smarter as it goes along. I never cried (that I'll admit to), but I have been pretty upset over the conduct of my classes before.
ReplyDeleteYou know, as you build your curriculum, you'll end up with things you can go back to. So, when the whole class is off task, you simply sit them down and start something else. I've done that before. We break up to work in small groups on video projects and the students get off task, so I just shut it down, we go back into the classroom and do something else. Maybe it's something boring, but I always have an idea to fall back on. You'll get that eventually. But it's just tough that first year for our classes because there really is no set curriculum, like you might find in the math department or English department.
Hang in there... You'll be surprised at the students that you think are jack wagons now that will one day come back around to you just because you stuck with them.